This year the Chinese New Year falls on Galactic Moon day 8, the Gregorian date for Valentine's Day, Feb. 14. This day on the Dreamspell count will be Kin 207: Blue Crystal Hand. This day carries the energy of cooperation and healing. By concentrating on the number 8 with its power of integrity, we may want to use this period of time to look deeply into our own heart and see how we may be able to clear in ourself all fear and old patterns that no longer serve us in our life. 

I, for one, am most happy to consider emptying myself even further of patterns of behavior that no longer serve me. Choosing a path of integrity during this Moon of Integrity means getting ever more real within myself. Do I truly practice what I talk about; do I listen well; do I extend my compassion to others; do I follow a path of truthfulness??? Every way that I can question myself without harsh judgement is taking a step forward on the path of personal change and transformation.

I am formulating some new material for a more basic approach to using the Dreamspell codes as a tool and map for our life patterns. This is just a brief entry for today ... more to follow

Always returning to the motto of keeping it simple, I have been enjoying this holiday season with my children. Remembering to honor my ancestors and support my progeny, I feel peace in my heart and joy in my spirit.

Happy New Year coded by 2010. Yes remember those counts ... whether vegisimal or decimal, its all valid.

In Lak'ech,

Lloydine

My romantic attachment to my second husband was truly absurd as reflected in my inability to see his true character. I have no tolerance for self-proclaimed prophets. I believe in my own ability to discern what I need for myself in this life. I believe in the Great Mystery. We do not know the future, but we are in command of each moment as we live it, to do the best job we can radiating compassion and enduring hardships as they unexpectedly arise. 

With gratitude for friendship, I appreciate the tender heart. Until the muse inspires me with something new, I am at ease with myself.

Note to the reader. I am finally reviewing what I wrote over the course of several weeks beginning on the Gregorian date of March 7, 2008. It was the first day of the Solar Jaguar Moon of Intention, the ninth moon of the 13 Moon Calendar when I first committed to write my story. On the Dreamspell count of days it was Kin 123: Blue Rhythmic Night, carrying the power of transformation, equality and abundance. Today is November 22, 2009, and with the synchronicity of time it just so happens to again be Kin 123: Blue Rhythmic Night. Without any intentional plan, I find that I have returned to this work precisely one Galactic Spin of 260 days later. I am a living example of the hidden power of synchronicity in the mysterious play of human life. 

DAY 1:  Kin 123: Blue Rhythmic Night ... Casting

Born to Maya, I took my first breath of life on May 15, 1943 (Gregorian Calendar date). When my mother had to register my name on the birth certificate it read Ray Carol Burris, but then three days later, crossed out and written in blue ink, my mother changed my first name to Lloydine.

My father, Lloyd, was overseas, as were most of the men during that time of World War II. My mother took me home from the hospital to live with my older sister, Sarah, my Aunt and my Grandmother. My paternal grandmother had driven my mother to the hospital the day of my birth. I was born into a world of women.

I did not meet my father until I was two years old and he returned from the war. I once asked my mother about my name and she said she had chosen Ray originally because it would work for a male or a female child, but once I had arrived she created the name Lloydine, obviously in honor of my father who was away.

There are so many details to a lifetime, yet the patterns make the process of retelling the story far simpler to follow. I have just described the situation of my birth. Two features stand out from my perspective 65 years later. I still hold my breath when something unexpected is about to happen, convincing me that I surely took an in breath just out of the womb and I had to gasp for air. The other aspect is the issue of my name. Change is on my birth certificate -- the name crossed out and changed in blue ink. Then there is the issue of my mother's name MAYA.

I first encountered the history of the MAYA when I met Jose Arguelles in January of 1981. As I chatted with the handsome dark haired man smoking a cigarette each evening at the end of our meditation session, little did I know into what an adventure I would be embarking. I was on a Vajrayana Buddhist Meditation retreat, already having practiced with my teacher Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche for the previous seven years. I was divorced from my children's father, but still lived with my nuclear family in Boulder, Colorado. Like so many marriages of the Seventies, we had explored having other partners and I had become obsessively sexual in my general orientation. Finally, I had settled into a more tranquil fidelity with my ex-husband when I met Jose.

It did not take me long to discover that Jose and I were destined to meet when we did. There was a driving energy between us that was indescribable. Over the next six months, I managed to resettle in a small condo at the outskirts of the city with my daughter. My son continued to live with his father in the large house I left behind. Shortly after my move, Jose also found a small apartment along the route of his commute to work.

Now you may certainly wonder where all of this is going to lead you, dear reader. Please bare with me as I unfold the story of how I have become the embodiment of natural time. As I said, I did not know anything about the Maya, their advanced astronomy and knowledge of numbers until Jose and I moved in together during the summer of 1981.

One day when I was at home sick in bed, Jose came into my condo, ran upstairs to see me and said "I am moving in with you." He had just been at his commuter apartment with his two children, and his son had said to him, "Dad, what's a guy like you doing living in a place like this?" I didn't have much time to contemplate this action, since Jose started to bring his things over almost immediatly. Of course, we had gotten tired of commuting between our two places and we each had our children to relate to.

Just before Jose moved in with me, we took LSD one Sunday afternoon. He always joked with me later, "you had to pass the Acid test!" Well the psychedelic trip was extremely loving, full of light, and as I was already an experienced meditator, it did not cause me to lose my center or to experience anything fearful. 

Living together in our small condo, we often took hikes up the mountain to refresh ourselves. It was during these moments in nature we began to experience ourselves as "not alone." The voice of the Arcturians was strong in our beings and it sparked a magical energy between our hearts. From childhood, nature has always been my guide. Whenever I had difficulty in my childhood, primarily caused by my father's accute alcoholism, I would run out into nature, under the redwood trees of Mill Valley, California for solace. My love of nature was revitalized during these mountain walks with Jose.

Even now after being apart for seven years, I can say that Jose Arguelles was the love of my life. The closeness that we experienced in those early years together was indescribable. My mother, Maya, understood. She recognized in Jose the brilliance she had experienced with her own father, an ordained minister in the Svedenborg esoteric tradition, who had taught her the power of the "ever present NOW". My relationship with Jose was fully confirmed by my mother. Maya was my closest female friend until the time of her death in 1996. 

My embodiment of natural time began early for me. At the age of six, sitting in the balcony of the San Francisco Opera House, watching the ballerinas perform Swan Lake, I imperiously instructed my mother that I must do that, I wanted to learn to dance. From that time onward Maya took me to weekly ballet lessons all the way through my Senior year of high school. Through dance, I had an early understanding of the Buddhist concept of impermanence. That the only real constant in life is change, that everything is always in motion.

As I relate my story of embodying natural time, I need to further address the process of naming. First, there is my name, Lloydine, that led to the development of my outgoing personality, since I always had to tell the story of its origin from my father's name, Lloyd and that “no” my mother did not want a son. Then there is the issue of my smile ... and my energy ... "Wow, you've got so much energy, Lloydine, where does it come from?" 

In 1974 when I took my buddhist refuge vow with Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche, he bestoyed on me the name of "Dharma Lake of Energy." Now some thirty-five years later, I still carry an energy reserve that runs as a positive current through my system. As I've introduced some themes already, I will summarize them for you as we progress with my journey. Human nature, sexuality, energy, natural time  … themes that will be woven throughout this work, just as the warp and woof of the fabric that creates the patterned cloth. 

I am revealing to myself the nature of my own embodiment of time as I write these words, fingers flying on the keyboard. I will not censor nor edit what I write, I will simply proceed day by day to discover what has been lying within my heart that I have not spoken or shared yet, even with myself. As tonight is the beginning of Daylight Savings, I will head for the dreamtime, since I will lose that hour for sleeping in tomorrow morning before practice. 

UPDATE TODAY, NOVEMBER 22, 2009: I have only made a few spelling and grammatical changes to what I wrote spontaneously, exactly one human birthing cycle ago on March 7, 2008. Today I will commit to lightly edit and write a daily update according to my present journey in natural time. Knowing that Thanksgiving Day is coming up this next Thursday, the timing could not be more perfect.  It was exactly eight years ago that I drove away from my life partnership to begin a new pattern on my current life trajectory, as a single woman discovering herself, a human being in constant transition. 

I would like to pay special tribute to Eden Sky and her husband, Robert for their amazing work over the past month to synthesize the 2012 prophecy information for us. Especially in light of the new movie just released, "2012", there is a flurry of activity around the 2012 scenarios for our future. Go to www.13moon.com

Yesterday I acknowledged a phrase that I learned from Barbara's telecast "internal integration". I feel that the time of profound change that we are entering requires each of us to look inside for our internal guidance. Things are moving too fast and there is too much information to synthesize if we do not start at square one with ourself. To quote my mother, Maya, we all live in the ever present NOW. We truly have come to that time when we cannot trust old forms to carry us into the new dawn.

When a cycle ends, it must be released so that we do not carry its shadow into our future. In terms of our human identity with all of its vulnerability, this means that we must continually give birth to our true self each moment, wide awake to all the change around us.

Keeping a clear head at this time means that we must be able to rise above sentimentality, attachment to past forms, and learn to read our senses clearly and to listen to the reasonable nature of our intelligent human mind. Internal integration comes only as we are able to balance our body, our mind and our spirit in constant motion. The fixed point that we can always depend on is our awareness within each moment. 

Let us question the intelligence of the patterns we follow. Let us pursue a path of curious cooperation with whatever presents itself day to day. Let us remember that the power of love, beginning with self love and expanding into universal love, is truly the energy to move us into this most exciting future that awaits us.

Perhaps now I released my past in such a way that I may finally be able to share more in this blog.

In Lak'ech, I am another yourself in love

I just listened to a telecast with my old friend, Barbara Marx Hubbard. Barbara is now 80 years old and still going strong in her path of service, as a living expression of the current evolutionary feminine power. I am so inspired by the genuine cooperation that is happening among women and I believe this is truly the root to the healing of the planet.

I continue to forgive all of my past confusions and I now invite my new path of transformation to manifest from my own continued work as a teacher. Please visit: www.womenontheedgeofevolution.com or contact events@womenontheedgeofevolution.com to listen to today's event with Barbara Marx Hubbard.

I have not written in my blog during the past 30 days of my own passage across the fear of death into the full recovery from my tribulation of a return engagement of cancer. On Kin 50: White Spectral Dog, I had a second surgery in which lymph nodes were removed to see if my cancer had metastasized. For the next five days, I lived in fear that I would be faced with a more dire situation. Finally on Kin 77: Red Crystal Earth, I was given the good news that my lymph nodes were completely clear and free of cancer.

Today I am able to reflect from my own experience with the Dreamspell codes of natural time. I plan to continue to write now that I have recovered from my second surgery, released at last from fear into self-love combined with so much love from those who have helped me during this time, finally delivered into a new harmony within my own life.

I am humbled by the knowledge that we are continually guided from the Great Mystery. I have been given a reprieve to return to a fully active and healthy life. I will teach Nia, I will practice Falun Dafa and live in harmony with nature, one day at a time.

Today is Kin 40, Yellow Magnetic Sun. Today we start a new 13-day cycle on the last day of Gregorian August, a fun crossover. I am healing well from my mastectomy, but still have one more hurdle to go through. I had what is called a "false negative" during my surgery with regard to lymph nodes biopsied. The detailed report showed I still have some cancer in my lymph nodes, so have to have surgery one more time on White Spectral Dog.

Please continue to hold me in your prayers for a complete and total recovery. Breast cancer is a curable disease when caught early. My tumor was medium sized and it was lucky I finally caught it when I did. I am very impressed with the Kaiser Permanente Medical system. They emphasize self-healing and paying attention to wellness programs. I really hope that the US Congress will hold fast to implementing a revised health care plan for all people to receive proper care. I appreciate Medicare in this country as now I am a recipient!

Finally, I want to honor what a great man Senator Teddy Kennedy was. I was able to view the live broadcast of his memorial service held on White Crystal Mirror. It was attended by all of our living US Presidents and he received an incredible eulogy from President Barack Obama. It was history in the making in the best sense of the word.

More to follow as I continue my recovery. Sending radiant beams of love to all who take the time to read my blog.

Lloydine Bolon Ik

On this day of my mother's Galactic Signature, I wish to follow-up with regard to my surgery on White Cosmic World-bridger. Both my son and my brother were with me at the hospital. My surgery went very well. I am now recuperating at home happy that the results are excellent and that I am now cancer free once again. 

Thank you to all of you who sent me so much love and prayers of healing. The power of prayer is strong. I had a very postive experience with the Kaiser/Permanente hospital here in Portland, Oregon!

When I am dancing again, you will hear more from me via this website.

In Lak'ech

Lloydine Bolon Ik